The Saturday Saga

It’s the third Saturday and I am working (officially). The agony, the pain, the anger and the lethargy are all dumped into one body and that is mine. Not that I am very proud of this habit, but I usually get up at 5 in the morning.

Only, its to shut the alarm and go back to sleep again. So, to add to this pathetic routine, the Saturday morning started with the alarm blaring very loudly at the other corner of my room which is to make me get up from the bed (not saying it’s a successful trick). So after watching a late night show of Namaste London snuggled into my japuri rajai (I don’t like the AC on mid or low blower and at a temp more than 20 deg), I went to sleep sometime between 1 and 2. But I guess even a good movie show doesn’t replace your need to sleep and sleep and sleep. So when finally I did get up, the clock showed 7:55. For those of you who think I did sleep enough, I HATE YOU!

Now I am in office, describing the so-painful story of my incomplete sleep. But what I should add here are the niggling effects of being in your office on a Saturday that doesn’t need to be a working day. I miss the days when Saturdays were always off, when I closed work at 4 and downloaded movies and songs from office (understandably, they’re blocked here). If you think on the same lines without being judgemental about me being so damn lethargic and needy of off-time, let me know and we’ll sob together.

Nobody Knows

Although this is just a song, its the saga of my heart. Every word it says it seems is not the singer's words but my heart's. Here are the lyrics...

NOBODY KNOWS
By: The Tony Rich Project

I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
Now I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
Now I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can see it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And, I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
Now I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night as if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
Million words couldn't say just how I feel
Million years from now you know
I'll be lovin' you still….

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
Now I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

Tomorrow mornin' I'm hitting the dusty road
Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope you come back to me
Said when the nights are lonely...
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
Now I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me